My middle name is Rose. But I sometimes think it should be Stress. Although, I will admit I think Rose is very fitting because I can be sweet and delicate like a rose, but I have thorns. I have mentioned once or twice on here that I am the queen of stress and it intensifies around the holidays.
The first trigger for stress comes in the form of various parties and events. Especially hosting. I stress about every single detail. From the decorations, how the house looks, the food and drink, the music playing, and so much more. I stress when people come to our house for the first time, I always want to make a good impression and I get so stressed about it. I need everything to be perfect. I also always stress over being a hostess and thinking of party small talk. Trust me, I'm not the best conversationalist. I worry about things to talk about and what to say. It's crazy but that's just me.
I also always worry about gift buying/giving. I stress about finding everybody the correct gift. I want them to be meaningful and something they will genuinly like. In an ideal world, my Christmas gift buying budget would be limitless and I would buy everyone a house or a car, but unfortunately that's not my reality...yet ;) So it always causes me great worry. I worry about the cost and appearance of each. I worry do you try to match gifts they've bought you in the past. I get so self-conscious when it comes to gift giving and buying. I really just want everything to be perfect and get upset when I don't think it is perfect. How crazy do I sound right now??!!
I also obsess over the perfect outfits. I need multiple outfits for the festive season. I need one for Christmas eve dinner, Christmas day dinner, New Years Eve dinner/party, and New Years Day dinner. These dinners and parties are filled with family and close friends and I never want to show up in clothes I wear a lot. I always tell myself I need new clothing. I have bought a few new things for this year and the theme is sparkle and shine. I like to be the center of attention in certain circumstances and these are those circumstances. Sparkle allows me to stand out in a flashy kind of way.
So although it is the most wonderful time of the year (I mean one of the best parts are the British soaps, they always have the very best episodes on Christmas day...drama, drama, drama, and I love it) it also proves to be a time of great stress for me (which is hard to tell considering how much stress I have all year long) But I love Christmas so much and will take Christmas stess over any other kind of stress any day!
Only 3 sleeps until Christmas!!!!!!!
Bye for now!
-E xo
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